Out of Place!

I woke up today and felt more out of place then ever before...
There are times when i wake up and I feel like i don't belong where i am but today it was really bad.... i opened my eyes and keep thinking why am i here i don't fit in here... i think it is guilt... my husband had a wonderful job when he met me but in time he left it so he could take care of me and has not found a job since then cuz he is worried about me... and that eats at me... i love him more then anything in the world but part of me wonders if he might have been better off with out me... i mean he would have a job and he would not be dealing my issues or stressed out...